Moving right along...

Easier said than done...but, when the realization and understanding hit you like a brick wall, there's no denying it. And while the path that I currently tread, has definite extended periods of smiles and sunshine, it occurs to me, that there must be a path where things are even smilier and sunshinier. And I know that I won't find it traveling down this road...so, I guess...I guess it's time to move on...

It's a difficult realization to have to come to...painful? Yes. Necessary...not sure. But, I can't just blindly stroll down this path, only to encounter disappointment after disappointment. I've lost faith, ladies and gentlemen...but, I guess that's because things are out of my hands. I've done all I can...and what little I have to show for it, except my heart splayed open on the ground in front of me. A bit harsh? Yes. But, that's the way it is junior detectives. This whole love thingy is kinda tricky...if someone out there has The Complete Idiot's Guide to Love or Love For Dummies, perhaps you could pass it on to me. :)

I guess I'm in a weird place right now...there are a lot of unfinished thoughts flying around in my head. But, I think that once Timmy is able to restore order, or to some degree...restores chaos, things will be smiles and sunshine once more...

[S]he was everything, everything that I wanted.
We were meant to be.
Suppose to be.
But we lost it...

All the memories so close to me,
Just fade away...
All this time you were pretending.
So much for my happy ending.

You were everything, everything that I wanted.
We were meant to be.
Suppose to be.
But we lost it...

All the memories so close to me,
Just fade away...
All this time you were pretending.
So much for my happy ending.
So much for my happy ending.
So much for my happy ending...

-Avril Lavigne, My Happy Ending

I seem to break out in song a lot...I wonder why? Oh well. Later.