It's kinda funny...how with just a simple look, she can turn me into a nervous quivering mass...and how with that same look, she can break my heart once more. I find myself, once again, travelling through an emotional quagmire...and I think...I think I'm slowly sinking...
So, the Star Wars Trilogy was released the other day. Haven't picked up my copy yet...figured I'd wait till the hordes of geeks subsided...and then join up with the second wave of geeks. :)
I think I've mentioned, this before, but there's something cleansing about the rain...spiritually that is. Last night after a family get-together, I wandered around aimlessly in the rain for a while. I know that I've been a little down lately...it's been a little rough going these past two months or so. And while somethings will get worse before they get better, rain seems to have excised, at least some of my demons. I cast thee out DEMON!!! That was strange...anyways, I bought X-Men: Legends yesterday...couldn't resist. X-Men and an RPG. Sweet. And so, life is starting to taste a little more...normalicious.
Just when you think that things couldn't get worse...not that my life is particularly all that bad mind you...there are just certain emotional and psychological companions that I wish I didn't have right now...I mean, there are people who's lives are infinitely worse than mine...I know that...I'm just trying to get some perspective on the one thing that I thought I had some control over...it turns out...I don't. So, just when I think things couldn't get any worse, I find out that my Grandmother has been diagnosed with cancer. It's kind of a surreal feeling. I don't know that I've come to fully accept what this all means...I just thought that writing it out might help a bit. Not sure that it has...
What should have been the start of the pre-season is in fact...nothingness. There is no hockey...there will be no hockey. At least not in the forseeable future. I can feel the onset of hockey withdrawal...I think I'm gonna need some kinda patch or gum to get me through this one.
Go see Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow, right now. Except you DC, this movie isn't for you. You should go see Catwoman or something else instead. Stay frosty.
Life is starting to take on some form of normalcy, with all of it's usual warm and gooey flavours of normaliciousness. For those of you who don't know, several weeks ago, my world came crashing down around me. A broken heart can do that. And so, for the past several weeks, I've been trying to pick up the pieces and restore order to my world. And while order has far from been restored, the chaos has...for now, abated itself. It's been difficult...trying to work through the pain that is. I still have good days and bad days...it doesn't help that I work with the woman who shattered my soul. How do you...how do you tell yourself that someone, who's been a staple in your life, no longer needs you? How do you stop loving someone...how do you stop the pain? Unfortunately, I suspect that today will be one of those bad ones...but, we'll have to wait and see.
Maybe I'm being overly dramatic...but, the last time a woman broke my heart, I slipped into the darkness. And while, I don't relish the time I spent there, the experience taught me many things about life and about myself. Nevertheless, I vowed that I would never return there. Still, I could hear the darkness calling out to me...I could feel myself slowly slipping away. I've said it before...the darkness is a comfortable place to be. So, it's been a struggle stay in the light, when it seems as if there is darkness all around me. They say that in time my heart will mend...I don't doubt that for a second. The only problem is, it just seemed as though...time was standing still. The clock is ticking once again...albeit maybe a little slower than usual.
I've had some excellent friends keep my grounded in this world though...and to them, I am eternally greatful.
Ghost in the Shell 2: Innocence is suppose to open today...can't seem to find a theatre in the lower mainland that is playing it. Perhaps it is the US release date. Oh well...it will be here soon enough. Yesterday I bought...no...not comics...that's today...yesterday, I bought Star Ocean: Till the End of Time. Why you ask? Not sure. In any event, the sun is out and I've got a smile on my face. I couldn't ask for more. Stay frosty.
Don't mind the title. It's a Futurama thing. In any event, I've been riding a bit of a major low for the past week or so...but, I've decided that I'm the only one who can get me out of this rut. So, I'm riding my Freedom Cage to safety. :) That probably makes no sense...but trust me, it's not fun waking up every morning feeling like you've been mauled by Jesus.
But, Jesus aside, I've found myself reading a lot more recently. There was a time in my life when I detested reading...and while many people would argue that comics are on the lower end of the reading scale, I think it's a medium that is sadly overlooked. I'm not sure why...some of the best writers (I think) out there today work for comic book publishing houses. That's right ladies and gentlemen, the story is just as important as the artwork. In any event, whatever you think of comics, good or bad, they are more and more becoming part of our mainstream culture. And for your entertainment, as well as mine, here's a list of some of the comic series (and their affiliated publishing houses) that I am currently reading (I might go into more detail about individual series in subsequent posts):
The Authority (Wildstorm)
The Losers (Vertigo)
Rising Stars (Top Cow)
Identity Crisis (DC Comics)
JLA Elite (DC Comics)
Ultimate Spider-Man (Marvel)
Ultimate X-Men (Marvel)
Powers (ICON)
Darkminds (Dreamwave)
Hellboy (Darkhorse)
There's many more...but, I think you get the idea. Later.
I think it's time we blow this scene...get everybody and their stuff together. Ok! Three...two...one...let's jam!
-Tank!
This post is a bit of a milestone...it is my fiftieth post here at Smiles and Sunshine. This equals the milestone set at that ol' favourite of mine, Under New Management. I always find that milestones are a good place to stop and reflect. So, you've been warned.
For those of you who don't know, I took the title for my original blog, from title of the second trade paperback of the Wildstorm series The Authority. The premise of the series is simple: a group of super-powered humans (AKA Post-Humans), take it upon themselves to make the world a better one. Change the world for the better...I'd like to think that that's the underlying theme of this blog. :) And I'd like to think that I live my life according to that same theme. I'd like to think that for my friends and family, I've used my powers to make their worlds a little bit better. And while my powers don't allow me to affect change on a global scale, I'd like to think that I'm changing the world in my own way...one person at a time. Stay frosty.
The Way The World Should Be
